What Are You Thinking?

[EagleRose]

Baka...

[kat (1)]

Fuck facebook..fuck this site..fuck fairweather friends..fuck you...fuck the internet...fuck apathy...fuck it. Fuck it I am banning myself..I made some good friends on here but I was naive trusted the wrong people...This will be my first and last online community I join..Everyone is a facade..online fake friends create fake friendships..make believe...and its all fun and games until someone gets hurt...ppl kill themselves over shit like this..because they do not realize the ramifications of their behavior due to inability to have real feelings or emotions beyond a computer screen, and who gives a shit about what they say right...you dont see a person you dont care that their human beings whose hearts can be shattered because they believe everyonr is good and real and trustworthy...only to be truly hurt...noone gives a shit if they break your heart, make you cry, makr your fucking heart feel like it is literally shattered and empty....we are out of site..out of mind...that can disappear and be deleted the same way you put down a animal...I give..I never I would be "that" stupid, naive, girl...but I am. I wish I knew what was in store but I didnt and my heart is paying a heavy price as a result. Just because the internet is a game, a joke, a playground for you..just because who I am is something sub human to you..and unreal in your eyes..doesnt mean the pain I feel isnt real..it is. When you log off and a person is just a computer to you, well that person or those peopl are real....no matter how hard we try..we can never just "log off" our emotions and humanity. I exist.

Edited August 24, 2013 by kat

[TronRP]

Fuck facebook..fuck this site..fuck fairweather friends..fuck you...fuck the internet...fuck apathy...fuck it. Fuck it I am banning myself..I made some good friends on here but I was naive trusted the wrong people...This will be my first and last online community I join..Everyone is a facade..online fake friends create fake friendships..make believe...and its all fun and games until someone gets hurt...ppl kill themselves over shit like this..because they do not realize the ramifications of their behavior due to inability to have real feelings or emotions beyond a computer screen, and who gives a shit about what they say right...you dont see a person you dont care that their human beings whose hearts can be shattered because they believe everyonr is good and real and trustworthy...only to be truly hurt...noone gives a shit if they break your heart, make you cry, makr your fucking heart feel like it is literally shattered and empty....we are out of site..out of mind...that can disappear and be deleted the same way you put down a animal...I give..I never I would be "that" stupid, naive, girl...but I am. I wish I knew what was in store but I didnt and my heart is paying a heavy price as a result. Just because the internet is a game, a joke, a playground for you..just because who I am is something sub human to you..and unreal in your eyes..doesnt mean the pain I feel isnt real..it is. When you log off and a person is just a computer to you, well that person or those peopl are real....no matter how hard we try..we can never just "log off" our emotions and humanity. I exist.

It kills me that I'm dying to know what happened, but it sounds like it took an extreme toll on you

Just know you are loved here

[TronRP]

Wow...an actual 2.5 hours of sleep before the phone rings off the hook for a "pet in wrong yard" emergency...

[TronRP]

I think I'm awake...or else I'll have to believe I'm sleep...

[TronRP]

THANK GOODNESS!!!

I thought I was going to loose my mind earlier over straight up worry for Okaasan's health. All afternoon and the last 3 days have been touch and go. All is calm now. I can breathe at the moment...

[TronRP]

Wow...this amv was so delightfully depressing...

√Bestamvsofalltime - Depressive Methodology AMV

http://youtu.be/_DNVo-L1BCI

[WhiteLines]

I am thinking that I've been out on the road too long and off the net. Need to update my profile and get back to City Club after this gawd awful Kansas City job is over with.

[EagleRose]

The moon is setting.

[TronRP]

If I let things get too out of control, I may be a good candidate for depression at this stage...thinking I need a Zelda intervention

[kat (1)]

I need to hide my card .

It is dangerous to give the daughter of a compulsive gambler (rip) money and a job that is near all the casinos.....also, I followed my heart and did not buy that shirt...further, I forgot my next thought..skip it

[WhiteLines]

Honestly I think the last 3 to 4 months of events have broyght ruin to my life, and i have been on the road working all over the country 90% of that time. Things are confusing, disturbing, and just plain sad yet i continue to go forth. Idk why tho.

[kat (1)]

Someone remind me how stupid I will be if I hit the casino today at lunch or after work....anyhow, my inner Dionne Wareick is telling me at about 5:45 you are going that I am going to get crabby and want to lay back down but cant cause its almost time to leave.

[TronRP]

Ha Ha...just great. The one time I have a major finished carpentry delivery coming and it rains. Hopefully the drivers will be late like last time and miss the main part of this down pour altogether...I didn't buy extra tarps...

[TronRP]

OK...I have to commend Jeff from Lowe's. His diligence found a billing error and incorrect product purchase on my receipt as well as missing merchandise from the pull due to someone pushing my prepaid carpeting down the isle.

Kudos Dude

[WhiteLines]

I think my coworker cannot awake on his own. Took me over an hour of door banging to get my friend who's leading the job to wake up this morning but it was hilarious to see him all drunk with white contacts and try to follow random people like a zombie outside the hotel all night.

[EagleRose]

Fret not. My sanity and I parted ways long ago.

[kat (1)]

I dont feel good..my fucking back is hot meaning an anxiety attack.

[kat (1)]

Maybe the brown toothed upstairs psycho neighbor chic whose ass I already tore into cause I hear her screaming at her husband all day has a xanax..

[kat (1)]

Or valium.

[WhiteLines]

I have Valium, don't have an RX for it, but I am furious with my phone having to been replaced. Just got it and I have to redo everything now, I don't even use stock user interface overlays and run home screen replacements. This thing operates backwards of everything my old phone did. Have to log back into every single thing too so I started with here and gmail obviously. But I'm so pissed Valium wouldn't even help, I'm not even interested in taking it.

[kat (1)]

I have Valium, don't have an RX for it, but I am furious with my phone having to been replaced. Just got it and I have to redo everything now, I don't even use stock user interface overlays and run home screen replacements. This thing operates backwards of everything my old phone did. Have to log back into every single thing too so I started with here and gmail obviously. But I'm so pissed Valium wouldn't even help, I'm not even interested in taking it.

I get it prescribed but ran out and didnt have time to see my quack last week...what milli do u have mine are ten 2 work if I am at a real hard time.

[kat (1)]

I think my paranoid cherokee southern baptist grandma....rest her soul...made me a weirdo obsessed with the metaphysical and psychic ish...a strange example...Friday I was driving home from work and there was an event that was suppose to occur well my gut everything in me was telling me they were not white witches and to stay away even though they claimed to be...so as I am driving and I know this sounds crazy and dark but it is what it is..so In my head my little half assed psychic self says inside if this is a bad idea and these people are actually are not white witches you will meet a man tonight who is extremely religious..not spiritual but straight religious. Well I go to 711 maybe an hour tops later and as I am pulling out of parking spot I stop cause This guy was walking and I didnt know which way he was headed so I am waiting and the dude like stopped to get my attention started asking me general bs questions claims he thought he went to school with me..anyway...he says well can I have your phone number and I am like ok whatever...so the dude ends up texting me we chit chat he starts talking about how he goes to two different churches three times a week..one a southern baptist as he was raised that way by his mom but also a catholic church like two times a week and confessional everything than I just freeze and was like holy crap...I predicted this..all happened wihin a couple hours of this preminition..that creeped me out and I now truly know, I am some kind of freak...mmm no wonder I will probably be single forever..I AM CREEPY!

Edited August 28, 2013 by kat

[WhiteLines]

I get it prescribed but ran out and didnt have time to see my quack last week...what milli do u have mine are ten 2 work if I am at a real hard time.

Just a few 5mg I'm not really into taking them although I do have anxiety. They're just one of those things that ended up in my possession. Guess it'd be handy to have if I really needed them

[kat (1)]

Just a few 5mg I'm not really into taking them although I do have anxiety. They're just one of those things that ended up in my possession. Guess it'd be handy to have if I really needed them

I prefer to do it natural also so I usually aleays have 5 htp on hand...note to self pick up 5 htp..lol