torn asunder

feeling disappointed and disillusioned by the "SSDD" scene at the local venues. longing for a change...

let me know when you'll be around, i'll head up as well...

"I'm a little... disappointed..."

i still want to try something like this some time...

not at all. my realtor set me up with a portal for free & i looked at over 360 houses online, maybe 20 in person, free of charge. when i finally bought my place, he helped with all the paperwork, and when i signed, he got his fee. i'm there are details to be gone over before starting, (such as committing to buy through them and not someone else), but that would be the honorable thing to do anyway for someone who's investing so much time with you.

real estate agents are well worth the minor expense (typically 3% of sale price, I think?) and they will set you up with an MLS portal through which you can view short sales, foreclosures, etc, as well as regular home sales. 3% of a 20K house is only $600. might sound like a lot, but it can usually be paid through the mortgage.

not this...

step outside, sit on your stoop, or porch, or the sidewalk in front of your place... stay there for an hour, no jacket, no thermals... now hold on to that feeling for the next week, or month, after you've come in and warmed up...

right this minute? lamenting my fate...

i can't post the song that's on my mind, as my goth card will be permanently revoked if i do...

p.s. i hate valentine's day...

feeling nervous and unsettled about the visit to to cemetery tomorrow (today, actually). I have this impression I won't be welcome, even though I'm the only one who ever goes to visit with him every year. I hope he wants me there...

'sup, bav!?

lugubrious...

heading out to the garage for a workout, in the hopes that it might lighten my emotions a little.

i'm feeling both hopeful anticipation, and trepidation. i'll be coming to Ann Arbor again for valentine's day this year to sit with my son at his resting place. it's always a mixed experience. i wonder if a time will ever come when i don't need to!?

appreciated. it would be much better if any of them actually lived in the same town, though.

feeling pretty low on greens & blues...

having a special someone to share things with... *sigh*

getting ready to go see three different friends' bands, and luckily they're all on the same bill!