jcheeka

Im on the fence about which one is more painful. If you dont let anyone new in then you cant get hurt but if you cant let go of the one that is already there then how do you move on. I really hope that things go the way I want and it all works out but if not I am ready for some fun.

Someone who is willing to work for what they want. The poor me attitude only goes so far. You cant complain about how bad things are if you are not trying to change them. I also need someone who can deal with who I am and not run scared from me. I am who I am I like dressing sexy when I go out and I like very little clothing at city club. Dont freak out on me because I dress this way realize that I am with you and only you just go with it and enjoy the view.

sorry

I must confess that I really want to be a naughty girl and have some fun I dont want to be with any one person right now. No I am not just talking about sex silly people lol. I have spent more then half my life with someone and I want to go on dates and see what that feels like. I want first kisses and giddy feelings. I am so tired of stress and heartache I dont think I cant take anymore of it. My heart truly belongs to someone but I have given it to him freely twice now and he has thrown it away both times. I thinks its about time for me to close off my heart and just go from there. Friends is about all I can handle right now

I am trying to give him the space he says he needs and not drive him crazy. In the mean time I am trying to just go out and have some fun so I dont go crazy. I love him and want the life we had planned together but if he cant learn to trust me and stop running from me then all we ever will be is friends.

Its funny I dont really decorate my house but I work at spirit halloween so I get to decorate there. The kids that scream from the decor are kinda funny but the grown men that scream like little girls and run out the door is priceless

i confess that I say im fine with taking a break from my man but on the inside its killing me. I also say we can be friends if nothing else but thats not what I want I want forever with him

I really am so confused right now. My boyfriend and I had broke up in january and we got back together a few weeks later. Things were kinda hard for us his baby mama was being crazy and I was really busy taking care of my sick grandma. He also gets really depressed and thinks way to much about things. A few days ago he told me to drive safe because he could lose me and doesnt want that. Then yesterday he tells me he loves me very much but he needs a break. He needs to get his head straight. I understand that but how do you go from I dont want to lose you to I need a break in a day. He also deleted his facebook and fubar. I am so worried about him. I told him I would not text him in order to give him the space he needs but I am here for him if he needs to talk. His best friend is really worried about him to. He has not always had an easy life and people have walked away from him before. I just wish he would trust me enough to share his demons with me I can take it I love him and want to be with him but I cant beg him to talk to me when he doesnt want to. I dont know what to do. Do i wait and see what happenes or do I move on. He lasted two weeks without talking to me last time I am hoping not talking to me makes him miss me. Its so hard to make someone realize that you are not going anywhere.

Big hugs for you

wishing my boyfriend didnt have such a crappy day so i could kidnap him and take him to a midnight showing of kick ass

All my boyfriends piercings turn me on. He put his tongue ring back in for me because I was complaining I have paid for two tongue piercings and never got to kiss either person. His tattoos also turn me on. He loves my nipple piercings and my belly ring. I am so do for a new piercing or two. I want my nose and very cute below piercing but I need a job to pay for said piercings.

wondering when things are going to get better instead of worse

that this week coming up is going to be way to long

That i feel like im a bother to my boyfriend. Sorry I text and actually like an answer sometime in the future. But its all my fault that he has had a crappy day and doesnt feel good well neither did I but my fingers work just fine to text. I also love the fact im not supposed to get mad when he doesnt text me back right away but he texts baby mommy right back no matter what we are doing even though it has nothing to do with the kid. I also love that baby mommy doesnt know we are together so when she saw my car at his place the other night she freaked called him to tell him that kid was sick just so he would go check so she could go nuts on him. Then because she said she was sorry for being a crazy ass bitch things are all peachy again

Very confused and lost

so cute

so want to go but lack the needed funds

wondering why sleep was so important to my boyfriend instead of seeing me for a few and offering some comfort due to the fact my gram is dying at the moment. I told him it was fine but still kinda makes me laugh that i am all alone like usual

good luck trying to get divorced is a pain in the ass

finding out I might not get to see my boyfriend tomorrow after all

damn wish i could get out tonight I really needed a night out

people and there whole poor me attitude. give it up you chose the life you have if it sucks try to do something about it even if it doesnt work at least you can say you tried.

I met my soon to be ex husband in high school. We got married really young and for a while it was good. I really did think that I was in love with him. As we both got older we grew apart in so many ways. We are just two very different people. The man I am with now there are no words to describe the love I feel for him. I always thought this kind of love was just in the movies. I was never one to close my eyes and jump for a chance at being happy but being with him makes me want to fly and experience everything with him. It is still very hard for me to open up to him but I am trying.

I learned a long time ago to never show who i truly was. I scare most people just by letting out the little bit of myself that I do. I am trying to open up to my boyfriend and let him in but its hard. He is the first person I have let see mostly who I am. In the past anybody that I got close to leaves me in some way so i close myself off from everyone. Falling for my boyfriend was never something I had planned on doing. I am really afraid to fully open up to him and let him in