Troy Spiral

Funny thing is I've been hearing that since I was a child. Took me all this time to start buying into it. Mostly due to a really old-school christian upbringing. When I say old school I don't mean say... "serious christians" I mean... there is no room for this kinda stuff AT ALL. I got messaged by several people who are christians with no real issue with this which I was in shock of. One couple I know just online messaged me explaining how they work it into their christianity. I actually spent many hours reading about "Christian Kinksters" yep its a thing. But that would not be any of my biological family. Pre-car accident I would have told them all to go fuck themselves if I had the feeling I do now. But when you are stuck living with one (for now) it's very different. But still... fuck it. I've heard about 50 "coming out" stories from mostly gay men , the way they describe it sounds similar to the feeling I seem to have now that I didn't have at the time I made that video. I'm sure something like being gay is much different but the connection between how they described being open about their homoxexuality feels so much like this dones. I feel much more "free" now. If i lose friends over it (or family) good riddance. About the only biological family I have that would really hurt to lose would be my mother, who despite really judging me for it badly isn't going to disown me over it. I'm actually kinda frustrated that I didn't lose a few key people that have long been kind of a pain in my ass. Those people actually (the three people I'm thinking about) actually all had either neutral or positive things to say.

Nice. Has a 80s new-wave vibe (aka post-punk) to it. Which is where the bulk of modern goth got its sound from. Siouxsie, Early Cure, Bauhaus. Despite the takeover of electronica the root in most cases still has it.

Happy Birthday... ghost.

Welcome. Just out of curiosity how did you find us? Our friend google?

What's happening with your VPN? Doesn't let you tunnel to this site?

Hot. Heh.

Better run. Not sure if I'm talking to you or to myself. Pretty nervous about this.

Really hard for me to keep up with this. I'm trying. Just so much stuff to do / read and such little time to do it in. 'With the radio on one of the few stations not playing Christmas music, ' how dare you. I'm so offended! lol

*hugs* Get some sleep! =D

Yikes.

I looked that up. Looks interesting.

I have been randomly stuck watching my older videos (and I've watched jessie's video there 3 times). But with me I am trying to (slowly IT TAKES FOREVER) go through my videos and try and weed out any personal info that is in them (and in the descriptions). When you have 90 of the dang things to comb through its like zzzzzzzzz. Lately I've been stuck watching mostly: 1. Youtube Creator "advice" videos 2. BDSM videos 3. Political stuff 4. Science / History things 5. Self-help / motivation type videos. I used to bing the hell out of funny stuff, but being so short on time some of my "fluff" has been falling by the wayside. Recently a guy I watch regularly who is "straight" as hell, that is like very family friendly and has no real "edge" to him Brian G. Johnson who just does youtuber advice videos about content and the tech of youtube. But one of his subscribers made a "Rap Dis Video" aka let's make a rap song that basically insults a person and it was pointed at Brian G. who (apparently) the guy had learned a lot from and grew his channel largely with Brian's advice. The video itself is playful and not mean spirited. But just today (i think) brian G made his OWN rap dis video and it KILLS. But it would only fully make sense to people that are into the youtube creator guys. I've watched both videos like 5 times. I can't picture it being of much interest to random viewers. This girl here is really polite and never says anything that wouldn't pass a PG13 test yet covers BDSM stuff she really seems like a nice person and after you watch THIRTY OF THE DANG THINGS.... she's like a rare example of a "classic" submissive. No swearing ever as far as I can tell and shes so careful about how she words things. Sometimes i think JUST SAY IT... you don't have to start everything with "ok i know some people think this and some people think that and other people don't agree but let me try and explain....". It's really good for newbies though. I sat through a livestream called "KINKFEST and ANIME" haha. /tronbaitmode on there isn't any real "sex" talk per se. Which surprisingly is common. One guy I DO watch a lot is "Oversimplified" he does these animations where he takes some subject, usually academic like "The Revolutionary War - OVERSIMPLIFIED" and he does the whole thing in one video with his hand drawn cartoons. They are interesting and usually funny.

Don't put any SPN (that isn't actually an acronym right? Just a short way of saying supernatural?) spoilers in them! Gah! I've not started yet (have to finish game of thrones and catch up on star trek then supernatural is next). *shakes fist at you evil spoilers* That is actually a good piece of drama storytelling wise or it could be "connective tissue" across a few stories. Sort of like running elements that recur in a 'show' but aren't the core idea of the show, they just add an interesting element. Like... oh god what is she going to spoil this week? Or... Ok im STILL miffed about that walking dead spoiler!! RAWR!! lol (not really). I really did enjoy seeing the gathering from a different angle and hearing stuff i TOTALLY never heard when I was there. I feel like i know that particular gathering like the back of my hand at this point. I can picture a situation where multiple angles of the same thing and multiple "takes" on it could be really interesting. It wouldn't have a super wide appeal BUT you don't need that. What you need is a small/moderate sized audience that is very engaged. Which , crazy specific things like that get.

Wow awesome. Actually a classic car too not just a 25 year old car.

The real-life RPG tabletop channels on twitch are pretty interesting. I've not done any acid in like 15 years, all maybe 8(?) times I just started laughing randomly all the time and then other times getting freaked out due to hallucinations. Enjoyed it but in the end it seemed rough on my stomach. Right now I'm on the hunt for X since all my shady character hookups seemed to have disappeared and it has a lot of potential to treat PTSD. Just leave it up! Then fuck it , in a week or a day or two weeks throw something else up. If you are feeling like the feedback might be overly negative you could take that into account in the future but not for something that is already out. You put it out there, you made it, you overcame some insecurities about doing it... fuck em if they piss on it. You did what you should have done.

*shakes fist at printer*

Frustrated this came and went before I realized. I'm trying to force myself to be bigger on environmentalism and economics (never gave a crap about either prior to a few years ago) both are super important. Earth day is a good time to raise awareness about the environment. The FUCKED part is... hey guess what its no longer "lets save the earth" its "less save all of humanity except the billionaires (they don't need saving)". Watch TYT !

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The current administration usually makes the time period so short that its very difficult to even respond or doesn't have them at all. I'll go respond. (I do a lot of "letter to congress" and "sign this petition" type stuff) Right now, to make real change we have to actually get up and go to their offices or just an overwhelming public outcry which is hard since the billionaires have brainwashed a third of the country and have confused another third. Long term corporate money has no business in politics. That should be the second highest priority for everyone in the country. (The first should be you know.. saving the planet from being uninhabitable by all but the super rich. Money talks, crying middle class and poor people cannot be heard very well over the huge piles of corporate billionaire money. WHO COUNT AS SOME BETTER THAN HUMAN HUMANS. You and I have a max of something like 44 hundred dollars per candidate per election. Corporations 1 get to use their money to vote 2. do not have to follow that same cap. The bill they passed to vomit all over us was disgustingly called 'Citizens United" (obviously having nothing to do with uniting citizens.) The Citizens United ruling, released in January 2010, tossed out the corporate and union ban on making independent expenditures and financing electioneering communications. It gave corporations and unions the green light to spend unlimited sums on ads and other political tools.

I was thinking... From is leaving this early? Something isn't right. I'm checking for pods in the basement! Also send me that picture of Jessica tattoo. In the video I can't even make out what it says. I'll do some video editing voodoo to mix the video with the photo. Was great to see you again.

Well and making Jessies house spiral member certificate. Yay! (I some crazy how lost the file and had to re-create it).