Troy Spiral

thanks Nienna

I'll probably have the DGN cards with me per usual. Can always use addtional help getting the word out about the board if anyone wants to help. The cards make it easy you can just stuff one in somones hand and they dont have to try and remember the site name the next day after the hangover wears off hah.

Thanks sir. =) Was nice to see you. =) Awesome ted. =) Get there earlier sir!! Hi Onyx. hope your doing ok. Was nice to see you.

The Xanax, i got MQ heh. Unfortuantely the crappy insurance i have doesnt cover prescpritons.... 100 bucks for 60 2mg pills (max dose that they can give ya)

Whoa the Brooks man is showing up? I'll most likely be there per usual. Going to be HARD to deal with this weekend for various reasons but im going to try to make it regardless. =)

a.... cant say it. :tear

What do you look for in a potential significant other? What are the key personality qualities you want? And the bonus question for people that care to share: Are you single/married/taken/looking/other ?

Nerdcore you didnt say anything wrong. =)

I sort of lurked around a bit (and danced alot) and probably came off as being stand-offish to a few people i hope i didnt offend anyone. Im just relaxing a bit at the club and making some changes. Or rather I need to start "being me" more and a bit less of the yes-man that i've been in recent months. Its a good thing for me. Per usual in the last couple months had a good time for the first 2/3rds of the night. =)

"Now remains faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love." ...Yes painfully, it takes huge heart and wide eyes to fully love... If you can no longer make her smile you may feel loss and sorrow. Yet what true lover would keep his love heartlessly from its desires? If you no longer be the one to make her happy do you no longer love? If you are to weak in health to fulfill her desires what good are you? If you are to small in mind to expand her horizons any longer ? If you cannot summon the strength to keep pace with your love? If your heart desires , but your mind and spirit have not the strength? Honest love will love regardless and cheer on its object Honest love will wish only for the positive and not the spiteful Heart may be broken , bent , shattered, let down and weak here though, the true heart will still love on, regardless of the scars. The man from Tarsus wrote, "if I have all faith , as to move mountains, but have not love I am nothing." "Love is long suffering, love is kind, it is not jealous...it belives all things, endures in all things." Yet, painfully, but none the less truthfully, love must also be be, though the raining tears .... Understanding.

Haha. Thanks GoC. I've been telling people "buck up camper! you rock!" for so long i forgot how to tell myself to do the same i think. Thanks for the positive vibes sir. Basicly that poem is mostly about the past. I've made some drastic personal changes recently and its for the better. Last night actually was the first time in a long time that i was the "real troy" at CC pretty much the whole night. (if a bit confused and let one or two people get a bit closer to me than i'd like but not for long. *crosses arms* hah) I know i pissed a few people off but i need to change. I dont like this new troy that showed up at city club in the last few months. Sometimes (hell a LOT of the time) i'd rather just hide out in a corner somewhere and chat with a few people and/or dance. Im much more ... er.... "laid back" or lets say "proper" on the inside. Often i end up being "social troy" or "entertainer troy" or "obnoxious funny troy" instead of just "being troy" like i want to do and know i should. I thought to myself the other day "City Club is ruining my life!". Why? No troy its not city club, its YOU troy YOU are letting yourself ruin your life. Your doing things you woudlnt normally do, basicly becasue your trying to make other people happy WAY to much and need to stop saying "yes" to everything. Stop it! I pretty much be myself, but at the club for some reason (and sometimes other "social" places) its different and its screwing things up for me and people i care about. I have been spending the whole night trying to make other people happy, and when i leave , im not happy with myself. Its hurting, but im changing that , and fast, for the better. =)

DGN @ City Club, Saturday, June 25th Come. Join us. Meet us. Hang out. We're not that scary in person, really. Leland City Club 400 Bagley Street Downtown Detroit You enter by going through an unmarked door on the First Street side of the Ramada Hotel building, located at 400 Bagley Street in downtown Detroit. The club is at the top of the stairwell. (see picture in the link above in the DGN calendar entry) All are welcome. Come meet some of us weirdos. Saturday nights from 10:00 p.m. to 4:30 a.m. Alcoholic drinks until 2:00 a.m., pop and juices served all night. Admission is $4 18 and up, 21 to drink with proper ID (no exceptions). No drugs, weapons, chains, spikes or cell phones. Zoomable map to City Club. MDOT lane closures (The map isn't quite exact. The Ramada is located within the Bagley, 1st, Cass, Plaza Dr. block.) Hope to see you there =) Note: This thread is about who is going to CITY CLUB ON SATURDAY, if you want talk about some other club,going to LCC on some other night,some other place or some other subject? Make a new thread, don't post about it in this one.

What did ya see on satruday at CC?

I want to shy back and stand out of the way most of the time calm with myself or my loved ones quiet, sublime. I want to relax, dance and just smile, pleasant and polite but sometimes, something has me doing what i know isn't right. Sometimes i pull myself out of my too-small bed and act in ways that are not what is really in my head.

That was on Thursday, so much insanity has gone on since then it seems like it was a month ago. hah. But as BS said i got there and im ok. I actually was feeling halfway decent and drove from there out to the west side to drop off a present for someone after. =) My internet access has been up and down ever since i made that post i was able to logon a few times but not long enough to really post anything, i apologize if i worried anyone. HH thanks for the ride offer. What's wrong with me? Hell do you have 10 hours to read ? hehe. Basically i was in a car accident and have some problems like headaches and such along with some other personal stuff that's going on right now. But I'll live. Thanks everyone for the concern. Its much appreciated.

Havnt driven feeling "real sick" in a long long LOOOOONG time but i have a doctors apointment and i think im strong enough to go on my own (usually i get a ride) wish me luck =) Dont worry if worse comes to worse ill just pull over and take a rest. *builds up some steam* Actually kinda looking forward to it. I can do it! =) (yes i get cheerful / excited about simple things nowadays)

All you freaks not voting for the one I voted for are CRAZY! =) :grin

hah :grin Sweet.

You sweat and work and you try and you love and then cry Weary and strong and fast and long wishing we'd sigh Its rough its tough, raking, mean and all that falls inbetween How can you fully, nearly and clearly make your intentions seen? Honestly? Love? Suffering? Fears? Time? Sacrifice? Tears? Endless , friendless , heartless , bullshit , "cannont hear" ears Hiding , biding , cold , bold , tall, small , unrelenting fall Day after day of hurting cries , hour on hour of watering eyes How long till forgiveness and understanding overtake the mistake? All is love all is kindness but only here is endless , mindless Ice and snow and wind up on wind will blow, into my veins and take rains Move away the wall, there is no real reason it should be at all Lord please let me in I've only one sin, i care so deep, so far within I desire to warm her forever through thick, and forever through thin I've given it all , I've taken the fall. Scared , Reckless , Loving it all It hurts , it bleeds for its wants and its needs. In pain i sprawl. I want nothing but to care and nurture and protect you with the little i have Sweetie there's been loss, there has been pain , im wrong! Please love me the same! Pushing me has done me some good, but please god i wish you would Soften the heart i want so dear , talk sweetly into the tender ear Lord you know and i know that she can hear. She understands but its just fear The truth is know to you alone, and please help her move from her rock I've only been working ,and toiling and sacrificing to lovingingly block The Horrible turn that thinks have taken, Its clear and true and stopped by fear You work and you tie and you love and then cry Hard and strong and fast and long wishing she'd try Its rough its tough, raking, mean and all in between How can I nearly and clearly make my I intentions seen? I dont need anything except some affection: understanding, never demanding Please for the sake of my heart and least give me a start, a bit of wit and careful art Its easy to stop this horrid dancing around each other endless prancing Hugs and love and tearful affection is a thousand times over the better reaction Every excuse in the world is making, excuse is taking, the love and making its own abyss Love, it has been a mess, and worth the time and nothing less, life is short we all report Lord , Lord. Repentance. Forgiveness. Wipe the tears and wipe the fears. Beauty is within reach, Please open her heart and stop mine from aching. Tell her please. This chance, it is for once, worth taking.

"just some guy" more acurate.

If your still needed indpendent insrance (meaning not group via an employer lets say) , at least in my familys experence, doesnt matter where you go, it will be >expensive We've been looking for cheaper non-group insurance for my mom for years, no luck yet. Im borderline diabetic myself. Just have to take one things day at a time and as i say often "try keep your chin up"

Marblez rocks =) Dyno rocks =) Nerdcore rocks =) whoops. Lol did i really say that? Just like that? Must have been hammered. (big shock) :laughing

I could list off a long list of enjoyable , emotion evoking situations and "items" and "people" but at the core if it , my happiness comes not from a list of ABCs but from.... Feeling deeply, enjoying simply, thinking/exploring/searching freely, taking emotional risks without fear, being deeply needed and deeply needing. Hope that maybe all this shit we put up has some purpose it after all. =) Being alive and being glad that im alive and coming alive and seeing others earnestly doing the same. Places and things are temporary , i hope at least , the above are not. They bring to much joy into the world. Sometimes it takes suffering to appreciate joy. So be it, its worth it. At least thats what i think right know, might be all just a buncha crap i learned from the back of a box of wheaties.

I love it when someone thinks they can start a play fight with me and not get totally owned *catches crossbow dart midair and laughs his ass off* beeeitch!!