Troy Spiral

blue jeans and a white t-shirt. Uber goth right? Just bought the jeans recently , havnt had a pair of bluejeans that fit for a loooong time.

Working up the energy to take a shower after two nights of partying the troy batteries are a bit low.

glad you had fun krazy =)

*thinks back* yes =) Although "today" is actually several days after your post, sorry for the slow response to everyones replies. Thanks. =)

Ill be there tonight if anyone wants to keep an eye out for the drunken dork stumbling around the club. Second friday in like 2 1/2 years... awmagawd.

:tear Um , gut reaction? Heck yes, and pretty recently actually. Although what exactly a "soulmate" is im not totally sure as there are so many definitions. But if you mean, what i mean.... yes i do think i have. Painfully happy to be honest. =) Did (do) you like your highschool?

good advice. =) Although i DO need to push myself at least a bit i think. I've been in "hideout mode" for so long i think sometimes I've been hiding out just out of habit, even when i am feeling somewhat ok. I've already fucked myself twice now with the "oops.. im feeling a bit better... >does all kind of crazy stuff=) Hah thanks =) Omg that's a reason to stay up kelly hehe not a reason to go to bed. *starts thinking about it* does sound nice... mmmm..... *starts thinking about a chesterfield girl* Brandy and Jeremy plus someone that wants to help DGN promotion? Hell i have to rest up now, its official. =)

Great post. Thanks for taking the time to dig this thread out of oblivion. Very honest and clearly stated, nice to read a post like this. I think politics are "important" but like so many things they just fall by the wayside due to life being the way it is.... and lack of goddamn food! I need to eat!!! This whole dieting thing BLARGH! GIVE ME CHEESE AND FRIED STUFF AND ASSLOADS OF HUMMUS AND ORIENTAL FOOD NOW!!! oh yeah and some fries and mashed potatoes and tons of butter and throw in some of thoes "spcier nahco doritos" and some TACO BELL damnit and... and... er... ok >calms down Ok so yeah, life is hectic and there's only so many hours in the day, is probably why i dont spend more time on this subject , like the back of my mind tells me i should. (and i have never voted, basically because in the early years i thought it was all just a bunch of crap that i could care less about, and now , more recently its due to laziness and "having better things to do" (more selfishness i guess))

Usual health problems , mixed with me "overdoing it" a bit to much in terms of pushing myself to go out a bit to much. Im just so overjoyed that i DO feel like im getting better, that i think im jumping the gun a bit to much and running the engine a bit to hot, so to speak.

Thinking i miss my old pal spacin after reading the above post. Then going back to desperately wishing there were more hours in the day for each of us to spend time with everyone we'd like to and not have to "ration" our time due to life's realities. Oh well. "Wish in one hand shit in the other, see what ya get the most of." :laughing

Haha. Friends hug? Hell , im up for it the mood im in right now (grrrr mood) how come your ass isnt here yet BS? :laughing

The concept of "infinity" or infinite-creation is one that sort of leaves me slack-jawed in awe. Think of the power behind a thunderstorm, or an atomic bomb, amazing right?. The Sun is radically more powerful than either of these, yet there is a dizzyingly large number of more powerful bodies than the sun. By comparison something that might drop me to my knees in awe here on earth, is almost inconsequential to the power and grandeur of things beyond any humans ability to directly observe. Trying to get my mind around it once i really sit down and contemplate the subject. Im at least tentatively under the impression that the universe is >notmind... mother...effing...boggling:wink thought i may be) =)

Didnt read this fully until just now. Wow that sounds familair. =) Not sure how to respond to the whole thing because i just was sort of nodding in agreement through the whole post. :blushing

Hrmm... feeling sick, and tired, been up way to long, yet im still online. Somone tell me to STFU, and go lay down please. lol

a live hug. Internet hugs are cute and all but i need a live one.

Hrmm interesting. Its been almost a decade (omg im ancient) since I've been actively involved in academia , but hell if i had my choice i think i'd just be a full time student , forever, that'd rock.... sniff... So your primary interest is in what exactly? Non-human primate behavior? "primatology" i guess that's called?

Hey, anyone notice the "ignore this BS" stated about 900 times?

*sneaks up behind* *puts head on sybils shoulder* *wispers* "im always with you, dont you know that?"

*reads* *contemplates* (...hrmm side note, this thread was burried into oblivion , somone really cool must have brought it back up...)

Seadonkie

Being Exausted and frustrated and posting on DGN.... hrmm... so basicly same old same old!! :clover

*gets warmed heart feeling* *tries to pretend otherwise*

Less walls in my life.

Wow. Sound like a very interesting person. When you say your "senior thesis" i assume your school offers some sort of alternate graduation process , such as various electives and/or lecture courses that you could have chosen to complete your degree or were you basically "forced" to do a senior thesis? From your post i assume your degree will be in Zoology or just a general bachelors of science ? (at U of M most everyone ended up with a "of Science" degree regardless if it was Physics or Computer Sci or Psychology as i remember)

Sleep? What's that? Exercise & good diet helps. But i know how it is, damn brain, just cant seem to shut the damn thing off!! "Blanking your mind out" style meditation rarely works for me as that "blankness" only holds for so long and gets filled in with yet more thoughts. Some version of counting sheep does seem to help (i picture giant puffy clouds shaped like the numbers 1, 2, 3 over and over again sometimes, seems to work if i can stay focused on the repeating clouds long enough to shut my brain up) anything to get that brain to stop cooking on various concerns. Sort of "bore yourself to sleep" with the "sheep counting" Warm baths / hot showers and such seem to help. Some sort of white noise is good (fan humming consistantly, snow channel on a TV, or an actual white noise machine) to block out distracting noises. If you have access and/or can afford regular full body massages they fucking rock, get somone that knows what they are doing and its better than Xanax/Vallium. =) In my case its gotten pretty bad , chemicals end up being the final solution sometimes as most of the above takes a lot of pre-planning and sometimes just isnt available at all for one reason or another. Random over the counter gelcaps work fine short term (gelcaps kick in faster than the tablets). Longer term if the racing thoughts don't go away after a few weeks probably should look into some sort of treatment for it racing thoughts / cant sleep. The idea being to treat the cause (bad diet, lack of exercise, anxiety , whatever) rather than the symptom (the insomnia) if its not just a short term thing. But i think a solid couple hours of freight-train intensity , sweaty, massive orgasmic sex to the point of exhaustion with someone your totally into , snuggling up , then relaxing next to them quietly, every single night might a be better solution. Anyhow hope ya get to sleep. It sucks i know.