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Just because you can make an almost infinite amount of tracks doesn't mean you have to use them all.  "Less is more" in many cases.  Some of the best tracks are only four pieces (drums, bass, guitar, guitar/piano.) That said V3 is probably my favorite.  Things are spread out more and the timing seems better, even though it does have twice as many tracks on it as V1. I'd take some of the parts and split them off into other tracks, or have the track morph into them later on in the track, spread things out more. But of course others may have different opinions on it.

Yeah, had I not been an only child I probably still wouldn't care.  I've never really been one for "you're supposed to do this." But it's also hard to speak in "what ifs" too.  Maybe it'd have made me more responsible, or maybe I'd have literally killed everyone over the stress and aggravation. I still get that younger helping folks thing.  Recently an Arab kid (23) came to an Atheist meetup and I've been talking to him.  Mental issues and a bad family life where no one really understands him or even tries to do not make for a great time.  He found drugs and trouble with the law.  A story all too common these days.  I do what I can to help him out though with advice, though we really only talk over the phone.  He introduced me to a friend of his too who was waking up from religion and also had some questions about evolution. He called me his white dad, which I know was hyperbole but it was still a nice compliment.  As long as he doesn't beg me for money I guess I don't mind.

I never really got into this one. Just as "Every Day is Halloween," every day is also World Goth Day. Still, any excuse to throw a party I guess.  But if it's a day that ends in y that's always been enough of an excuse for me.

~~~~~ Actually, I found it got better.  I had to learn to enjoy life.   With "Middle Child Syndrome" you don't have the luxury of certain thoughts or behaviors as you watch everyone else around you living their life and "going through it".  However, there does come a point where what was then is no longer now and you find your voice, then you can start learning what it means to live life as we understand it.   Unfortunately, because that "freedom" comes later in life than most, you end up as an adult living a crash course of "This is Life" without training wheels and it is a scary position to be in while you are still carrying the scars of an inescapable sense of duty and responsibility that defines you as you navigate your new now.  You come across as a somewhat very naïve, yet responsible adult and there isn't a lack of participants waiting in line to take advantage of that beacon.    However, without the emotionally charged state of youth misdirecting you, you are also able to come to lifechanging decisions for your betterment quicker than most, as you are hyper aware of what is coming your way.   Mix that with a bit of new found confidence and you find that you have a voice that can help others to assess their own situations and life choices.   ~~~~~ As for myself, I interact with a lot of young people who are currently "going through it" and I let them know that although they are feeling it, they have to step back and reassess their situation from a different perspective.   Inevitably, however, with age comes the "I'm too old for this..." mindset wakeup moment and then you can truly begin to enjoy what life has to offer.  I just try to help people get to that point a bit more sooner than later.