What Are You Thinking? (cont'd)

[kat (1)]

Guess I'll be a cow and lay here and wait for sleep.

[kat (1)]

Well, I've done the damn laundry,  cleaned up,  made dinner,  made his tomorrow sandwich for lunch,  what else? Fuck. Why am I so bored?

[kat (1)]

Kinda wish I had access to the syllabus or that school didn't have a two week break 😕 

[kat (1)]

..and went for my fifth walk today just now.

[kat (1)]

The poor lady across the hall is elderly and lives all alone. She has a cat at least one that I seen on her balcony (we had a staring contest) Anyway, the cat piss stench permeates all the way through the door into the hall and into our apartment.  It's so bad like concerningly so. She is very independent.  One day she was trying to get up the stairs with a couple bags and I offered to help but she thanked me very gratefully and said she was OK. I don't want to say anything about the smell and my bf is nose blind and only noticed because I pointed it out.  The smell though..I hate seeing elderly people who have noone😢 

Edited May 15 by kat

[kat (1)]

Wow Instagram must think I need plastic surgery because everything that they show me was thigh lifts and tummy tucks 😢😭😪 leave me alone stupid shit. They know I'm old and that I watch too many DIY botox videos. I can't bring myself to do it, though. Wtf is wrong with me? 😭 I'm going to go do it!! I'm going to give myself a lip flip and everything!! I'll probably fucking paralyze my damn self. Br drooling and shit forever. 

Edited May 15 by kat

[kat (1)]

Making skincare videos ..bloopers. I just messed that up badly. 

[kat (1)]

Oh wow this cat piss stench us making me want to vomit. I sprayed ozium by my front door. I can't sit in the living room at this point I'm going to have to go live in the bedroom. It's worse today because it's 80 degrees but what's going to happen in July and August? Shit. 

[TronRP]

17 hours ago, kat said:

Oh wow this cat piss stench us making me want to vomit. I sprayed ozium by my front door. I can't sit in the living room at this point I'm going to have to go live in the bedroom. It's worse today because it's 80 degrees but what's going to happen in July and August? Shit. 

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Fill a spray bottle with water and vinegar.  Spray the affected areas.  Let dry.  Spray with a Sent Bomb (you can get them from Walmart, Amazon, eBay, pet stores, etc. 

One pump will do it.

[TronRP]

I have to remember that I can't save the World.  I can only do what is within my ability to handle.

[kat (1)]

On 5/17/2025 at 10:37 AM, TronRP said:

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Fill a spray bottle with water and vinegar.  Spray the affected areas.  Let dry.  Spray with a Sent Bomb (you can get them from Walmart, Amazon, eBay, pet stores, etc. 

One pump will do it.

Thanks! I am not smelling it today because it's not hot out. I  think it's a mat she has sitting out by her door because it looks stained up. Like the cat peed on it and she put it out there maybe.  

[kat (1)]

Oh yay this um, company sent me 25 bucks for reviewing their product. Hmmm. 

[TronRP]

I need a wheel alignment soon before my steering wheel starts spinning in circles.

[kat (1)]

Doritos with cream cheese!

[creatureofthenyte]

So, this is what 50 feels like ?  meh..

[kat (1)]

2 hours ago, creatureofthenyte said:

So, this is what 50 feels like ?  meh..

🫂

[TronRP]

What was I thinking?!?

I've been so busy helping others with their situations that I forgot to finish paying the bills for this month and everything is due like tomorrow!!!  I only got half of them done earlier so...

[creatureofthenyte]

My cat is watching tv.

[TronRP]

There is definitely a certain level of apathy that comes with age.

Where once life was just so dramatic, you discover, it's just not that deep.

[TronRP]

Project time!!!

[Scary Guy]

On 5/28/2025 at 3:19 AM, TronRP said:

There is definitely a certain level of apathy that comes with age.

Where once life was just so dramatic, you discover, it's just not that deep.

 

You mean it gets worse?  :P

 

My problem is it was never that deep as I always knew it was bullshit.  So I've never given it the proper attention it was due, nor have I ever really cared to.  I've just always valued enjoying life too much to spend time worrying about it.

There used to be a DJ on the radio who often espoused the motto of "we're not here for a long time, we're here for a good time" and I took that to heart.  It works for both going out with friends or just life in general (which ideally is also spent with friends.)

[kat (1)]

On 5/27/2025 at 11:19 PM, TronRP said:

There is definitely a certain level of apathy that comes with age.

Where once life was just so dramatic, you discover, it's just not that deep.

This 💯 

[TronRP]

8 hours ago, Scary Guy said:

 

You mean it gets worse?  😛

 

My problem is it was never that deep as I always knew it was bullshit.  So I've never given it the proper attention it was due, nor have I ever really cared to.  I've just always valued enjoying life too much to spend time worrying about it.

There used to be a DJ on the radio who often espoused the motto of "we're not here for a long time, we're here for a good time" and I took that to heart.  It works for both going out with friends or just life in general (which ideally is also spent with friends.)

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Actually, I found it got better.  I had to learn to enjoy life.

 

With "Middle Child Syndrome" you don't have the luxury of certain thoughts or behaviors as you watch everyone else around you living their life and "going through it".  However, there does come a point where what was then is no longer now and you find your voice, then you can start learning what it means to live life as we understand it.

 

Unfortunately, because that "freedom" comes later in life than most, you end up as an adult living a crash course of "This is Life" without training wheels and it is a scary position to be in while you are still carrying the scars of an inescapable sense of duty and responsibility that defines you as you navigate your new now.  You come across as a somewhat very naïve, yet responsible adult and there isn't a lack of participants waiting in line to take advantage of that beacon. 

 

However, without the emotionally charged state of youth misdirecting you, you are also able to come to lifechanging decisions for your betterment quicker than most, as you are hyper aware of what is coming your way.

 

Mix that with a bit of new found confidence and you find that you have a voice that can help others to assess their own situations and life choices.

 

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As for myself, I interact with a lot of young people who are currently "going through it" and I let them know that although they are feeling it, they have to step back and reassess their situation from a different perspective.

 

Inevitably, however, with age comes the "I'm too old for this..." mindset wakeup moment and then you can truly begin to enjoy what life has to offer.  I just try to help people get to that point a bit more sooner than later.

[Scary Guy]

10 hours ago, TronRP said:

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Actually, I found it got better.  I had to learn to enjoy life.

 

With "Middle Child Syndrome" you don't have the luxury of certain thoughts or behaviors as you watch everyone else around you living their life and "going through it".  However, there does come a point where what was then is no longer now and you find your voice, then you can start learning what it means to live life as we understand it.

 

Unfortunately, because that "freedom" comes later in life than most, you end up as an adult living a crash course of "This is Life" without training wheels and it is a scary position to be in while you are still carrying the scars of an inescapable sense of duty and responsibility that defines you as you navigate your new now.  You come across as a somewhat very naïve, yet responsible adult and there isn't a lack of participants waiting in line to take advantage of that beacon. 

 

However, without the emotionally charged state of youth misdirecting you, you are also able to come to lifechanging decisions for your betterment quicker than most, as you are hyper aware of what is coming your way.

 

Mix that with a bit of new found confidence and you find that you have a voice that can help others to assess their own situations and life choices.

 

~~~~~

As for myself, I interact with a lot of young people who are currently "going through it" and I let them know that although they are feeling it, they have to step back and reassess their situation from a different perspective.

 

Inevitably, however, with age comes the "I'm too old for this..." mindset wakeup moment and then you can truly begin to enjoy what life has to offer.  I just try to help people get to that point a bit more sooner than later.

 

Yeah, had I not been an only child I probably still wouldn't care.  I've never really been one for "you're supposed to do this." But it's also hard to speak in "what ifs" too.  Maybe it'd have made me more responsible, or maybe I'd have literally killed everyone over the stress and aggravation.

I still get that younger helping folks thing.  Recently an Arab kid (23) came to an Atheist meetup and I've been talking to him.  Mental issues and a bad family life where no one really understands him or even tries to do not make for a great time.  He found drugs and trouble with the law.  A story all too common these days.  I do what I can to help him out though with advice, though we really only talk over the phone.  He introduced me to a friend of his too who was waking up from religion and also had some questions about evolution.

He called me his white dad, which I know was hyperbole but it was still a nice compliment.  As long as he doesn't beg me for money I guess I don't mind.