alright well i had my 'talk' last night took a lot of peoples advice into consideration Pricks and GRG sat "her" down and had a talk needless to say i wasn't dealt a good hand or had a bad dice throw whatever the damn kids wanna call it now days but evidently i was just delt the friendship card and pushed aside for another guy all in a matter of 24hrs i don't know how you can expresses deep emotion to another human being and then in a span of 24hrs ur whole mind change i just don't understand it...i didnt plan on liking this girl this much at all...i really hate sex...i think thats why things got changed...or i felt diffrent..maby i sound like a pussy for saying it i dunno...but unless i feel some sort of connection with someone i cant sleep with em i cant do the drunken frat boy one night stands...so i think the sex changed it i think i felt more of a connection with her after sex then she did sooo yea...i hate sex and love sex....it seems to complicate things to much...right now i really dont know what i feel iam sad but its just like empty sadness i dunno if this whole damn thing will even be read but it just felt good to get it out *shrug*