Dear Troy:
I just wanted to say that I really hope you are doing OK, and I hope that your recovery goes well.
You have friends here, and you are no burden. If anyone has told you so, they are wrong.
So you fell back a bit. So has many. At least you can admit that to yourself, and also to others, whereas you could internally let it destroy you. You made the fisrt step, and that is really great Troy.
Don't allow something like this destroy your soul.
Please don't judge me by posting this, but I thought this might help. I would like to believe that I am so athiest and all, but in desperate times of need, I have always found myself turning to scripture for inner comfort. :fear
2 Timothy 3:1-7
1 But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here.
2 For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, self-assuming, haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal,
3 having no natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self-control, fierce, without love of goodness,
4 betrayers, headstrong, puffed up [with pride], lovers of pleasures rather than lovers of God,
5 having a form of godly devotion but proving false to its power; and from these turn away.
6 For from these arise those men who slyly work their way into households and lead as their captives weak women loaded down with sins, led by various desires, 7 always learning and yet never able to come to an accurate knowledge of truth.
AND
1Peter 5:1-11
6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt YOU in due time;
7 while YOU throw all YOUR anxiety upon him, because he cares for YOU.
8 Keep YOUR senses, be watchful. YOUR adversary, the Devil, walks about like a roaring lion, seeking to devour [someone].
9 But take YOUR stand against him, solid in the faith, knowing that the same things in the way of sufferings are being accomplished in the entire association of YOUR brothers in the world.
10 But, after YOU have suffered a little while, the God of all undeserved kindness, who called YOU to his everlasting glory in union with Christ, will himself finish YOUR training, he will make YOU firm, he will make YOU strong.
11 To him be the might forever. Amen.
Please do not think I am trying to Preach or anything....I just feel that perhaps maybe since these words have helped me to see things in a different light, maybe it might help you as well?! :fear
I wish you the Best Troy, and hope to see you back on the boards with your wonderful words of wisdom & kindness soon!
:clover :clover