Rayne

Me either. I feel horrid. Between the pain and the fact that I can't concentrate on these essays at all and I should be at the hospital, but because I've already missed enough school due to court and my own health issues -- I can't.

Mine isn't lack of trying ... I care and I do try ... i just have several things that get in/stand in my way. Including several people in my life who's goal it is to make see me fail. (not Phee, of course)

Struggling with this school work. I totally don't think I was cut out to be a college student. *sigh*

Thinking I need to stop digging up pictures from the Indian Reservation I lived on in Ontario for awhile. I miss that place.

I still feel like my Mom should sue her bone doctor for saying her arm was fully healed and taking her out of the cast only to find the arm never healed in the first place. She could have gotten this surgery over during the summer when this first happened when I was much more available and not having to miss school to be there and help her. Or AT the very least, before my brother sold his car and moved to BFE. *stresses more* .... and *more* ........... I should be doing schoolwork and not stressing so much. *ugh*

Worried about my Mom's surgery tomorrow. The Cardiologist only cleared her because she insisted. She hasn't seen her Cardiologist in too long!! Worried about my own health issues. Worried about how in the hell I am going to get all this work done ..... And worried about the several cases of N1H1 that are now in my daughter's classes. We survived the oldest son's classes unscathed ... now there's more to contend with. Worried about how my family is affected by all my worry. :(

I feel like I am just waiting to see what happens next. I feel odd that I have to go to class tomorrow to work on a group project when I have no group. I was absent that day and should really say something ... I'd rather go through the semester unnoticed though, it's just the way I am. I feel prepared for my Politics exam. But I was last time and scored pretty average. I will probably email the instructor if I see the kid next to me cheating again. It will probably affect us all since he uses his phone to do it, but I suppose my kids calling someone else in an emergency is not as bad as us who study getting screwed by a curve. I feel as ready as I can be for the dr. Tomorrow. And as sad too that I had to make this decision in the first place. I am nervous about Mom's surgery on Tues. Putting in a rod and pins to fix the break in her arm, but with all her health issues already she has a higher risk of complications. Plus I really wish my brother could help out instead of leaving it all on me when I already have so much going on ... But I gotta do what I gotta do, ya know. I feel like I need some distraction and some good sleep ... But I am uncertain when either will appear.

Haha. My 5 year old just said "Look Mom! A silver Dodge Avenger, only it's blue!"

Like I am at Meijer somewhere between Mom's and my house in a minivan full of kids.

lots of pain, hopefully it's over soon and I can avoid another surgery. Then figure out where to go from there with the help of a bunch of antibiotics.

Can't sleep, but at least I got to help Phee with his allergy attacks in the meantime.

Very sad. Those of you who know, my dr appointment did not go well. I have until Monday to decide what to do. ... And on mine and Phee's anniversary of all days. :(

Not good ...

Meijer. I found that out when I was wanting to use it to get a dent out of my car.

So extremely angry ... the state and FOC are NOT on the same page here and it's not right!

You Are Blue You believe the key to living a good life is simple. Be as honest with yourself and others as possible. You value the truth over everything else. You will remain loyal to those who are honest with you, even if their honesty hurts. Compared to most people, you handle the truth well. You take every event in stride. You are the calm spot in a sea of chaos. You think the solution to most problems is open communication. You wish that people would be more real with each other. What Color of the Rainbow Are You?

About Phee and I's third wedding anniversary tomorrow.

Sitting in class, as usual.

I feel really tired. Luckily it can be temporarily fixed by Starbucks so I can make it through my morning classes. I feel ready for my Politics exam this am. Worried that my arm has been acting up since I got my blood drawn last and I haven't been able to straighten it all the way without pain ever since. What an odd ailment. Looking forward to relaxing tomorrow evening before going to pick up the kids on Friday am. They don't have school on Friday this week. And I feel extra thankful to Phee for helping me out extra this week.

Covertly, of course .... Though I am not sure, I think the jail experience may rival the current FOC experience. Make sure to stop at the casino and throw your newly obtained money around a lot before coming to court -- it worked for my ex. LoL.

Oh cool, one by my sister's house! The one in Westland, by my parents .... Along with the one by the ex's (Commerce) ... and the one in Flint by my bro's ... there's one almost everywhere I go, including south ... Everywhere, but home. :(

In my experience with FOC (all 11 years of it) ... that really doesn't help ... it's who has the most cash to throw around. My suggestion -- ditch the sex change and rob a bank.

Between the movie I have to watch, the essay I have to write on it and the Politics work/exam studying I have to do all before tomorrow, I feel like there will be no sleep tonight. And I REALLLLLLY hope my son's don't come down with the H1N1 they have been exposed to. :(

Still the hot pink from before. I won't do purple or blues for any length of time before I change because of my experience with the fading (less than two weeks and it's changed colours or gone). But ... as I said before, those colours aren't acceptable in the courtroom, and dying my hair black on a whim is not my idea of fun when I have to strip it out shortly after because I look horrible with black hair ... so I deal with different shades of reds. Lately it's been the darker (but bright) shades, opposed to my usual lighter bright shades.

Oh, I know that ... they are even a pain when you have a majour repair job. A tree fell on this car just before it turned a year old ... instead of totalling it, they fixed it ... and it's been RE-FIXED twice since it happened almost two years ago now. Instead of totalling out the $12,000 remaining loan ... they have forked out about $35,000 in repairs, against my original suggestion of totalling it (I have GAP insurance through Mazda, so I told them I wasn't even worried about the totalling amount). My insurance phobia I have from the tree incident is why I still have a dent in my door from this summer ...