ManicQueen

Chatting with Enishi about how sweet it would be to have a tree house.

Like I am going to kill my fucking nephew who doesn't listen and is an extremely disrespectful ass. Like I need a vacation or just another place to stay on the weekends.

Worried that I don't know how much longer I can do this.

Too hot to go to Florida right now but have fun anyway!! I usually wait till March to go down there when the temp. is just right.

Make myself and my nephew some dinner.

a pickle and coffee

Like I miss someone more than ever right now.

There is one thing but it will more than likely never come true.. that's why it's called a dream.

Tired as hell and a little irritated.

Hair and makeup, coffee and smoke.

Already ready for a nap.. its gonna be a long day.

Feeling like a little closure would be nice.

waiting

100% Apprehensive

"I'm gonna have to drop another $80 that I don't have for another pair of shears" "I can't believe that little fucker went into the church while no one was there" <---nephew

Texting my ex, reminding him of a few things. Texting my sister, bitching about her unruly child.

I'm pretty happy that my IOP class's are directly across the street from me now.. I can walk there everyday! Appreciative that my sister rescued me from the hell hole I was staying at. Was not a good place for recovery. Guess I should have known better going back to that ridiculous program. Things are ok and I'm pulling through.

Not too bad. I finally got a full nights sleep.. it's been like 10 days since I slept!!

Go back and reread this email and edit it if it needs it before I send it out.

My daughter turns 16 tomorrow.. that makes me feel old.

Relaxing from a long day. Trying to get my nephews motivated to do some cleaning

What's going to happen in the future.

I feel like my nephew just doesn't want to listen to me today. Like I am finally starting to feel healthier and stronger *mentally* Like my meds make me all itchy and sleepy. Like I wish August was over already!!

Being alone

Very lonely and heart broken. It's doubtful that I will find happiness with someone again. I feel like I am longing for companionship so bad it hurts. I just want to be held :( I feel like I am tired of crying all the time and being an emotional wreck. I feel tired of chasing something that doesn't want to be chased, yet I still try... I am proud of myself and that I've got some good clean time under my belt right now so at least that is going well.