natem

when i first signed up, i had a reason to live, my life had meaning, i was a whole person. but i was rejected completely by someone i truly cared for and there was absolutely no reason for it. i deserve better than this in life, but i am not interested in waiting anymore for it. i've waited long enough. i'm alrady old. waiting longer will not make me younger or more able to enjoy what i want should it ever happen. if it happens in the next few months, great. if not, i'm not...

i had some paczkis yesterday, but not many. i just don't feel like celebrating much. i was despised, screamed at and rejected for being a kind, generous and faithful person. i'm sorry for every bit of good character i have ever had. i'm sorry for every bit of knowledge, for all my abilities, my skills and my gifts. i'd rather just be tall, stupid, selfish and lazy. if i was all those, i would be loved without reservation and love is the greatest thing in life. but i am...

i wish i could disappear though. nobody wants me around, no matter how amazing i am, so continuing to appear seems like an error.

hi, i didn't try to disappear. i'm just stealthy. and i'm very tired as well. tomorrow, i'm working on valentine's day tomorrow.