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His death definitely had a big impact on me. I do not normally feel emotional about a celebrity death either but yeah this hit me in a few ways. Aside from growing up with him and his films which I loved alot of them even the ones considered mediocre or where he was not being funny. But the suicide thing its kind of a trigger and I am at this point going through mania, unable to sleep, really hard to control my thoughts even now writing this my brain is going a million miles an hour and I am having a hard time focusing on anything. I know that I am going to crash and not looking forward to the depression when my brain is depleted of all its happy chemicals. I think I have some meds left but since I have been waiting until I move and settle in a new place before starting therapy its going to be rough. Depression sucks so much and I have been suicidal before and to see he lost against it with all his resources shows the scary reality that no one is immune and if our loved ones and friends do not pay attention and hear us when we cry out or shows signs of depression it can end quickly and tragically. :( I been suffering since I was a child with mental illness and emotional issues and it is always a difficult uphill battle to try putting on a happy face and dealing with the people and world around you when inside you feel like a black hole of despair and pain. What makes me more furious are ignorant asshats saying nasty things to him and they started attacking his daughter Zelda whiles shes freshly grieving her father forcing her to close her social media accounts. there sure are alot piece of shit humans that get off peoples suffering and causing more. I think sometimes todays culture breeds and propagates some very sociopathic creatures with no empathy and compassion.

Sorry for the rant. I am having a hard time going off on a longer one so yeah Robin Williams you made us laugh you made us cry and you really were a stand up guy. thats not a pun we will miss you hun. My thoughts rest with your family who suffer more than any of us. I really hope that its not in vain and that it truly helps open up more dialogue for mental health awareness and making people learn about depression and not to politicize it or stigmatize it but in a non judgmental non biased way open doors for those of us who must suffer this life long incurable and painful invisible cancer that can at anytime take those we love and care for. there is hope and treatment but it is not so easy to get. When you are in a dark place full of hopelessness, confusion and your mind echos all the negativity and you feel better off gone its hard to reach out for help.

I will miss you Robin and I only hope if there is something after this life where ever you may be that you will bring more happiness to the universe in some way shape or form and suffer no more.

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I hope his soul can finally rest. Mental illness is no joke. We need a change in that attitude that the scars you don't see don't matter. Noone can judge how someone should be or should cope. We have to have enough empathy to step in the mind of another person and if we can't how dare we say anything of ill will.

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One of the hardest things is feeling "alone" with these sorts of thoughts, because basically... 'suck it up pussy' or ' out of sight out of mind' or worse yet... and o so helpful "its all in your head".

I punched my doctor when he said "its all in your head" to me. Needless to say, I don't see him anymore.

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