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Its me Cat aka the Fairy Gothmother. Holy shit its been over 4 years since I moved to Deutschland. Home of one of the most bad ass goth scenes. After my humble beginnings in the Detroit scene and then moving to southern California a few years I took the biggest risk and decided if I wanted to really wanted to experience the scene in Germany the best way would be to live there. So here I am now. 4 years and a few months living in Leipzig home of the Wave Gotik Treffen the biggest most well known Gothic festival and gathering. Its been quite the journey. I am married to my fabulous and loving handsome German husband Jurek. We have our gorgeous hairless kitty Gizmo. I am making loads of awesome friends including many elder goths that have been around since the beginning. I been to several festivals including WGT 2 times, Mera Luna going on 2 times, Gothic Pogo festival, and other events thrown by Vanity Noir and Darkflower. Theres such an abundance of events, concerts and clubs here. It was a struggle for me in the states finding much going on near by. I didnt live in Detroit so it was difficult to get to many events especially after my divorce and my car getting sold. I really count myself more than fortunate and still some days wake up pinching myself because for someone like me from small town USA in the rustbelt I never would have expected to get this far. Especially when I look at my family and circumstances surrounding me. Many people tell me I cant do things but I love proving them wrong. Especially as a bigger girl I think people are shocked that I have been able to do all that I have. Many expect a girl like me to sit around home popping out kids, living on welfare and going nowhere in life especially as a goth. My father even lacked much faith in me and mainly due to my weight issues. I however have dreams and goals in life and sitting here in my altbau apartment in Leipzig is a testament to how far I was willing to reach for and it meant taking big risks and making big sacrifices. (not the kind of scarifices that involve killing people or animals lol) I myself have evolved as a person and goth. When I was in the detroit scene I really was a baby bat not in age but experience and knowledge. I even briefly got into the cybergoth thing since it looked cool at the time and seemed to be the big thing in the Detroit scene. I have long ago shed my cyberlox, furry boot covers and goggles and embraced the Trad goth and deathrocker look. I also do some haut goth, tiniest bit of nu goth because face it some of those killstar shirts are pretty cool, and victorian/vampire goth for events but I truly feel comfortable and enjoy sticking with the basics. I grown much better at doing my hair and makeup and thanks to Etsy I am no longer limited to the shops and limited sizes. I prefer custom things anyways. I never had the opportunity to really get to know many of you from DGN or the Detroit scene before I spread my bat wings and flew off. I had newly discovered Michigan even had a scene and went to a few club nights and events before my desire and the opportunity to leave the depressing and toxic situation in my personal life presented itself. I attended one Manfast and won 3rd place dressed as Silent Bob and nearly died in a van with Mark from VNV Nation and Joe Letz from Combichrist because Joe thought it would be fun on a cold snowy night to cover the drivers eyes causing him to lose control on slippery roads and spin nearly smashing other cars and a huge road sign. I met many people at events who were really nice and treated me coool and I think its why I really felt my place was in the goth scene. The acceptance and vibes made me finally feel it was ok to be myself and I found my people. The California scene was cool and while I never ran into elitists I heard there were plenty. I still met some fascinating individuals in the Hollywood and LA clubs. Again I found myself in the difficult situation that I had lived just over an hour from most the gothy things. There was a goth night in the next town but it was small and dying out. I had no luck in the dating world either. All the guys I found interesting, attractive and what not were either taken, gay or not interested lol. I was getting bored and lonely and so I decided fuck it. Go big or go home and set my sights on Germany. Even before I started going to Detroit events and clubs I knew of the festivals in Germany. I seen them on youtube and because I had love for mans German bands and musicians and seeing some rarely if ever came to the states or Detroit/LA I dreamed I could go attend these festivals. Only I knew with my income it would be next to impossible. Whats in store for the future? Well I have a job opportunity coming involving goth winkle-pickers or pikes. Through some friends I met a guy in Leipzig opening up a unisex shoe shop and will be designing shoes for men and women including high heels. We met at one of my friends goth picnics and shes interning for his IT and consulting business. He mentioned that he would love to make pikes and knows they would sell very well in this city. I myself grown to love these shoes and got my own pair nearly a year ago and want any more. I also established myself as an artist at the WGT. I had some of my pieces on display at the inaugural Starla Gallery at the Victorian Village. They are buying a piece from me to auction and display in their future literature and media. I finally met Father Sebastiaan and got fanged by him and joined the Sabertooth clan. We have a large community and he often comes to Germany and leipzig and hosts endless nights at the Absintherie Sixtina plus conclave. Think of Manfast for Vampires but a little more refined (though drunken and naked shenanigans still ensue), elegant and in a huge medieval castle on top of a small mountain overlooking a village in the alps. Making plans to attend maybe next years. I was briefly spotted on German TV in a video about the 25th WGT. I was interviewed a few times. Once by MDR, BBC Radio and MDR Radio. I plan to attend pretty much every WGT now. I mean its right outside my doorstep practically now so I plan to be a regular attendee. I am building up a wardrobe of beautiful outfits, accessories and jewelry. I am making many more friends, got a solid relationship and marriage, and everything is falling into place. I am so happy with things and my move to Germany is paying off. I have more things to tackle like working on my weight and health but otherwise I am truly happy and more at peace than ever before. I hope you enjoy me sharing things periodically. I hope if you have not experienced it yet that one day you can make it to Germany for WGT or one of the many other festivals. Its difficult to explain or express how amazing they are. I will never forget where I got my start though. I have my DGN stickers displayed and tell people I got my start in the dystopian city of Detroit lol.