RosyBlue

I couldn't sleep last night so I got some of today's tasks done last night and then slept in the morning. I needed to switch back over to nocturnal mode anyways because I work Thursday night. I made breakfast for dinner because I wanted to make cinnamon bun pancakes. They're kind of a pain but worth it. And the kids actually ate their whole dinner. Pancakes, eggs, and bacon.

Friends and snacks are always good. I'm glad you're feeling better!

I managed to get a lot of cleaning done today. Clutter makes me anxious so it was nice to get a lot cleared out. I even got the kids to help! I plan to get more done tomorrow.

How was your day? Anything good happen? Anything bad? Did you accomplish something you had been meaning to do? Did your plans fall apart? Think of this like a kind of group journal, but with more love and support than a piece of paper.

Welcome!

We bring them more business than they typically have on a Thursday night, so I don't think they mind. So long as we keep the kids in our area and not let them turn into little lunatics lol.

Realizing that physical pain doesn't have to control my mood. My head has been hurting all day, I've been getting back spasms for a few days, and cramps, but it never put me in a bad mood like it used to. I'm actually in a good mood. It's nice that pain doesn't control me anymore.

Once the kids are on vacation we should have another night where we all bring our kids. I know mine had fun.

I'll be there and would like a card please. I'll have to leave early though because I work that night.

I should be there and I would like a card please. I might be bringing a new person too.

Thanks you guys

She's been ready to go for years. When I was 13 she stopped taking her blood pressure meds on purpose because she figured it would cause her to have a heart attack or stroke and then she would die. She did have a massive stroke but luckily she lived.

I'm sorry about your mom. It really is horrible to watch someone you love hurt. She was raised Catholic so she believes she'll go to heaven. And while I don't believe that, I would never take that comfort from her. It makes her feel better about it and that's all that matters right now. She asked me if I'm going to be ok when she leaves. She's worried about me. I told her that I won't be ok at first but I'll eventually be ok and that I don't want her to hurt anymore. Everything makes me think about her right now. I was listening to music on my headphones at work the other night and a song made me start thinking about her. It feels like I can't get away from it. When it comes to fight or flight situations I've always been very much flight. When my dad died I literally ran out the front door. I don't even know where I was running to or why. Luckily my friend was at our house when it happened and he caught me and took me over his house. When my grandpa was dying (I was a kid at the time) I didn't even go see him. I didn't want to see him like that. I always go into flight mode.

I don't like talking about this kind of stuff in a public place. I'm not sure why I'm even posting it here. I guess I just don't know how to handle it. My mom is getting close to dying. Her body has been hanging on for so long but she's been ready to go for a long time. I don't want her to suffer anymore but I don't want her to be gone. I feel like it's selfish of me to want to keep her here. She's never even had a chance to just be a normal, healthy person. She's been sick since she was born. I don't believe in an after-life or reincarnation so please don't tell me I'll see her again. I won't. She's been losing consciousness the last few days and her body is shutting down. I don't want this. I'm going to see her today in a few hours. She'll probably wake up for me. Every time she's had a big stroke and has been not really conscious, she wakes up for me. She didn't have a stroke this time though and she's not going to get better like she has before.

Welcome squeaker! (yes that's what I'm calling you now)

I should be there, pending any difficulties with a babysitter. If there is a card left, I would like one please. I know you already made them so I understand if there's not enough.

The Way Out is Through - Nine Inch Nails

I managed to find a babysitter so I will be there and am requesting a card please.

I will be at the Gathering and would like a card please.

Yeah I kind of freaked out a little there once I realized there was no event posting for it. I don't know what I would do with myself without my Thursday night Gathering. I will be there late and would like card #3, if possible, please.

I will be going and would like a card please.

I am at the Gathering and would like a card please.

Thanks for the advice! I don't expect them to get along as well as him and his brother did, but just so long as they're not trying to draw blood, like you said. My vet tech friend said I should get a kitten for the best chance of them getting along. So the search begins!

Welcome!