kat

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  1. What Are You Thinking?

    I tried I took all my klonopin 2 days ago and it didn't even make me sleep. My kid come here to see me today she couldn't stand my moms energy. She stayed five minutes her friend couldn't handle being in the house. I got raped when I was 15 and that so called friend and his behavior triggered something bad. My mom keeps telling me to shut up she can't handle life anyway. I want to go away. There's a place in Pontiac. I need to go there now. I need to go before I hurt myself badly.
  2. What Are You Thinking?

    I can't fix it this time. I can't feel anything. I just want to die. Not figuratively. I just want to close my eyes and let my life leave my body and free everyone from the burden I have bestowed on them. That way my mom can wallow in her misery, my sister can have more reasons to feel entitled to sympathy and getting away with anything and everything, and my ex husband gets me out of the picture and can gave his wish of me never being the mother I am supposed to be. The only person that will care is my daughter but she's strong. She'll do better without my drama and bullshit.
  3. What Are You Thinking?

    Back to nowhere to go. Could not allow myself to be in a situation where I am expected to have sex with someone. Despite what people wanna think about me I actually have morals and a strong conscious. Oh well.
  4. What Are You Thinking?

    I know why I really can't stay with my mother. She is on the verge of a breakdown because she's terrified of my brother officially joining the DPD. He will be done with academy in about a month and I'm afraid she is making it harder for him by freaking out. I can't blame her because I'm worried to but my brother wants this. I wish she was ok.
  5. What are you about to go do?

    About to try and fix my own tie rods myself but I don't have all the tools.
  6. What Are You Thinking?

    This probably won't work I love you guys though please understand. Que sera, sera...right?
  7. How Are You Feeling?

    I feel like the world hates me. I feel like so unworthy of anything. I'm nothing. My life is nothing. Everything is my fault. I get it. It's me. I'm the problem.
  8. What Are You Thinking?

    What is stopping me from laying on a traintrack and just napping? I have 9 days and no resources but I'm supposed to start this new job an hour away now which I am happy for but the car steering rack and pinion finally broke today. I almost got hit by a truck and alost ran into the little bridge over here. I couldn't get it to steer the tires where making there own decisions. I'm so fucking sick of this shit. I'm sick of myself. Then this dumbass told me if I don't um sleep with him basically um he gave me am ultimatum I mean wtf so I'm trying to leave before I lose it 100 percent. I can't stand this. He told me it wasn't like that in the beginning he was just trying to help a friend and blah blah blah. I would rather kill myself than let him touch me but where can I go!! I can't even live in the car now because its broke outside his apartment. Wtf wtf wtf. Why!!!!! What's the point. I keep saying the same thing. No shelters..I'm stranded in this little area where there's no bus, no friends. I don't wanna kill myself but I can't fix all this alone. I need help and I hate it. Why haven't I killed myself nobody has this much bullshit and actually still tries to come back up ftom it. Why do I? I'm still the piece of shit I've been all my life anyway.
  9. What Are You Thinking?

    Declaring a wtf.
  10. What Are You Thinking?

    Fingers crossed on that waiting. I remember when my ex and I bought our old house. It was a very exciting but stressful time and all that god awful paperwork will drive you to drink! Lol
  11. What Are You Thinking?

    Oh yea and congrats to Moe. I think she had posted a pic of the house on fb and its really pretty!
  12. How Are You Feeling?

    I feel like I am pleased by successfully making a funny. Thank you Tron❤
  13. What Are You Thinking?

    Some signs are feeling effects of the eclipse more than others. You being an Aquarius are among those affected to a larger degree. Oh, fun idea. Have you ever done a natal chart?